Fast forward a few years. I am back in Canada.
I have had enough. I am scared and alone and really just want the pain to stop. I was in and out of programs and drop in centers where I was fed and let to have a shower but they lacked the one thing I was searching for…God.
I had heard of this overwhelming love and inner peace that was experienced by people who had accepted Christ, trusted and followed him no matter what life brought forth. I wanted that…more than I had ever wanted anything in my whole life.
I found it! I met God in jail, I met him on my knees, I met him with tears flowing down my face and in a type of despair I wish upon no human being. I FOUND HIM! And he gave me the permission to lift my head high and embark on a journey to healing and wholeness.
I found God! And for the past 7 years I have relied on him through many things in my life, I am clean and sober and living my dream life however the wreckage of my past and new hurts and bumps along the way have happened yet have only pushed me deeper into my relationship with God.
Today I am whole, I am not perfect, I am funny, I am loving, I am helpful and I am a Woman that despite the sins against me, am able to carry on and seek out opportunities to be a part of things that can help women just like me find their missing piece.
I am extremely proud and honored to be a part of helping other women, and I am ON FIRE for an opportunity to walk hand in hand with God and the amazing women around me to spread the word that there IS a way out, that there ARE people out there that want more than anything to help provide a safe and supportive environment to women who feel like there is nothing.